The unfortunate saturday..working + losing

Here am I again.
Can't wait to update my blog, but dunno what should I write.
Now, sitting on my un-ergonomic chair in this office, facing this old-giant pc.
Actually, I got 4 urgent issues need to be settled before next Tuesday.
But look at what am I doing right now?
I'm updating my blog!!isk3.. Aqua, u shud focus on ur work.
Even, I'm wasting my valuable holiday by coming to the office and working but still I'm wasting my working time on doing something else - blogging.
Haha..I don't care =P
Today, I lost one of my house-mate, k.ira. She moved out this morning to further her study in UPSI. Arghh..I'm losing one of my few friends in KL.
We're not so closed but still I feel sad and gloomy after she's leaving. We just know each other within three month back. She's my sister's friend who happened to be one of my house-mate after she and my sister helped me and Nana moved in to our new house in Damansara Damai.
Urmm..I think, I can't let people leave me. It'll makes me feel sad, even they are no one in my life.huhu..I hate the word 'SEPERATE', 'FAREWELL'.
But, I think this is the perfect quote that I should always keep in my mind.

Don't be dismayed at goodbyes. A farewell is necessary before you can meet again. And meeting again, after moments or lifetime, is certain for those who are friends. ~Richard Bach

Just rilex

Today, only got two on hands issues. One is Zakat report and another one is payslip come back issue. Both had settled and deployed.
haha..act, both issue are easy and can be settled in 2 hours time only. But because of my damn slow pc, I got stuck with this for the whole day.
Urm, after deployed the issues, then I dunno what should I do. I just sit on my chair at my workstation, pretend like am working..hahaha..
what a big liar.
Everyone has going back except us: me, nana, lynn and Jc.
Ok owh, nana ask to shut down the pc. Gotta go..My family is coming to my house today. They will saty here in Damansara for 3 days, to send my younger sister back to her college and visits our uncle. He's sick..Hope he'll get well soon.Ameen..

Angry + Stress + Scare + Tense

hoho...
Almost 2 weeks, I've been very busy doing SP Setia Report.
Why on earth, from all human being creature in this P&T dept, I'm the only lucky person, the chosen one who have to deal with this issue. Seven reports need to be programmed.
Arghh..will never forget the feeling while doing this issue. Anger, scare, stress..all mix around in my small dummy brain.
Angry because I'm the lucky number one, scare because I really dunno how to do this report, the behavior, how it would works, can it cater all scenarios, what impact to the existing data, amount if I change the coding, and the most important thing, I really dunno how to test the reports based on the given scenarios
Stress? Because the project manager, consultant and even Raymond, one of the board director keep pushing me. Ask me to deliver on time, keep asking when I can finish doing the report. WTF!!!
Rs mcm perlu dimaki saja mereka satu persatu. Ingt, report ni, dgn sekadar berniat, mampu untuk menyelesaikan segalanya. Memang menyakitkn hati, dgn isu lain2 yg x putus2.
Lps da siap, byk plak kejadahnya..Ini x btol, ini x cater.Padahal, mende yg aku buat tu da out of scope. Kalo nk mcm2, buat sendri la..mmg mcm F!
huh..penat jgk melepaskan kemarahan.
I should let this feeling out, on the day they make me stress!! but, I've been very busy, so don't have the time to jot down this mumble around..heheh..
Those people, who make me feel this way should go and die in hell..huhu.
Tidak dilupa, thanks to my team-mates; Bryan, Chia Wei and Anders yang da byk menabur jasa, keringat, tenaga and buah fikiran to make sure this reports can be deliver on time. This is the pix of my team-mates =P

Thank you Allah, today a little bit rilex from 2 weeks before. Even SP Setia reports is not fully completed yet, I still got some time to rest. No more nightmares from YC the consultant and Raymond. Please!! Don't let any issue to come back. I really need to calm down and get some rest after struggle while doing this report and facing the peoples who make me feel like living in hell..huhu..
ok, cukup smpi di sini..I should sit back and continue my work.

Song of the day..

Huhu..currently like this song.





Cinta Ini
by Siti Nurhaliza

Betapa Engkau Menyintai
Agungkan Aku Bagai Seorang Puteri
Selalu Kau Puja Diriku Ini
Melayang Aku Tak Memijak Bumi

Namun Terkadang Ku Rasakan
Apakah Sikapmu Tak Berlebihan
Aku Wanita Tak Sempurna
Bukan Sekilaunya Batu Permata

Marilah Bersama Jalani Cinta Kita Apa Adanya
Saling Mengerti Dan Sudi Menerima
Kita Manusia Biasa
Marilah Menjaga Kesucian Cinta Rahmat Yang Kuasa
Saling Berpadu Hati Untuk Berdua
Dalam Dakapan Mesra

Nikmati Suka Berbagi Duka
Seiring Denganmu Aku Bahagia
Genggam Jemari Dan Berjanji
Setia Selamanya Sampai Akhir Nanti

conversation..

huhu..sempat lg tles blog, walopon keje masih beratur..
semalam aku on leave. rs cm da lama x cuti. aku cuti sbb ada hal..
kalo ikotkn keje ni, mmg sabtu ahad pon kne keje..
ceh, kunun2 bz sgt la tu..
bile btao je nk cuti, sume org sibuk2 buar rumours yg kunun2 aku gi interview.
heheh..pantang btol diorg ni.
ingt sng ke nk dpt keje. kalo da dpt tu satu, nk adapt ngn new environmwnt lg, new colleague lg, new salary...hoho..bukan perkara mudah..byk mende kne adjust tu..
rupa-rupanya, kebanyakan bdk2 kt department aku ni tgh mencari keje laen..ade yg da dpt offer, but still in consideration la kot. lps aku interview my new supervisor, Chia Wei, rupenye die dah dpt 2 offer. Cammni lah lebey kurang butir perbualan kami:
Aqua : Chia Wei, u didn't apply for new job?
Anders already went for an interview session. hheheh..
(Sambil didengari oleh Anders dan kami gelak bersama2)
Chia Wei : Harr.. I already got two offers, but still thinking over it.
heheh..
(Cis, senyap2 je supervisor aku ni. Rupanya die yg nk tukar keje..)
Aqua : Why? The salary that they offered is lower than Orisoft meh? Or you sayang nk tinggalkn Orisoft?
Chia Wei : No larr, it is because of their working environment and of course the salary offered.heheh..
Anders : Why Ieda, tomorrow you'll be on leave. you also wanna go for interview meh?
Heheh...
Ieda : Hahaa..No larr, I didn't apply for new job la. Just rest at home, sleeping, doing nothing..heheh..

Gitu lah lebey kurang, details of our conversation.
Perkara tu menyebabkan aku mula terfikir2 ntk apply keje laen dengan lebih serius.
Arghh..malasnya nk melalui step2 yg dah aku lalui dulu (cari keje).
Nak kne gi interview tu yg mls tu..dpt plak, kalo yg style ex-bos aku dulu..mmg mati kering aku nk mengabeskn sesi interview tu..
huh..bile teringt blk sesi interview tu, mmg menakotkn..da la int 2 kali, die suh jwb technical question kt white-board plak tu..ingt aku nk maen cekgu-cekgu ke ngn die..die tatao ke aku seram ngn jelingan dan silauan kepala die tu..huhu..
walaopape pon, tenkiu Joel, for giving me this opportunity to be part of Orisoft. heheh..

Busan lg~

huhu..
sebenarnya tatao nk tles pe..tp cm busan. walopon keje tgh bersusun menunggu turn ntk disiapkn, tp stil ada masa ntk merasa busan. nape eh?
blom setaon bekerja da rasa cmni, cene la org yg da keje bertaon-taon tuh. hari2 mengadap perkara yg sama, walopon isu nye laen2..
dr pg td, aku dok ngadap kerja ni..tp sepicing pon die x bergerak2. ari ni aku start buat E-payslip ntk customer Pantai. kalo buat mende ni, mmg melahu la jawabnye..nk testing aje ,da mkn masa..itu yang smbil bekerja kne berblog ni..ih3..
kalo nmpk dek supervisor aku yg kt blkg ni, mau die pon join aku jd blogger ni. sbg tanda sokongan.."arghh, ap yg aku karutkn ni?"
si nana ngn Lin da ejek2 quotes yg aku gn kt header blog ni..hik3. abes,aku tatao nk tles ape, aku blasah je la. dr dibiarkn kosong, dan membazirkn ruang. sebenarnya, quotes tu terpilih ntk diletakkn di situ kerana time aku tles tu, aku rs cm x pernah puas ngn ape yg aku ada..salah satu drp nye ialah kerana rs cm tamak, cm nk increment dr bos. ''bos, boley kah sy dpt increment?". dan rs cm nk cr keje laen. walopon kdg2 rs syg kt keje skrg, even keje skrg ni sgt la tensen, penat, dan menuntut tahap kesabaran yg tggi dr insan yg x sesabar mane spt aku ni..ok, skrg da nk dkt pukul 1. kne kuar lunch, skrg..

ek..hemm..

aku mmg x sabar2 nk memulakan kerjaya sebagai sorg blogger ni...hik3. punye la lama amek masa nk create blog ni.
walopon, hari2 keje aku dok asek ngadap pc, working, surfing, browsing, googling, friendstering, facebooking, bkn sng nk curi2 tles blog ni..kebetulan hari ni dtg awal. office hour start pukul 8.30 a.m. So, skrg stil ada masa utk maen2..eheh.nape aku tles blog? urm..hik3.lps sorg mmbe suh visit blog die, aku jd tertarik. aku rs, ni la tmpt yg seswai ntk menulis, meluahkan apa saja yg terbuku di hati, yang kalo diceritakan kt org laen, rs cm ssh org nk phm. sejak keje ni, Lin ngn Nana je la tmpt aku meluahkan perasaan suka, seronok, geram, marah, kecewa, malu, saket ati..dan mcm2 jenis emosi laen yg wujud kt aku ni sbb dorg ni kwn2 satu industri, satu opis, satu universiti, satu fakulti, satu kos, dan sekolej. Masing2 jd tmpt luahan rasa antara satu sama laen...ok. kne smbg keje plak..adios.